That’s what my life has felt like lately. And I was not okay with it, until recently. I was very not okay. Then some people I really care about spoke some wisdom and truth into my life and it smacked me upside the head, as wisdom and truth are apt to do. I was making myself miserable. Only you have the ability to make yourself feel miserable. No one else. You have the raw ability to look discontentment, bitterness, stress, and anger in the face and say, “you have no power here.” We lack the strength to do so, but God doesn’t. I always envision God sitting back in an armchair, twiddling His thumbs, watching me freak out trying to control everything myself, and waiting for me to look up at him and ask him to take over. That take over is never easy, either. But when its over, you feel like you’ve just climbed a mountain. It’s exhausting, but exhilarating. You know you’ve gotten somewhere. And the view is beautiful. The cool breeze that ruffles your hair is your personal gift from God. You realize that all the things you take for granted are truly amazing blessings.
God is just so good. Even when you forget He’s there, He never leaves. He still paints sunsets for you. He still protects you from your own stupidity. And he waits patiently. He watches you pay for the consequences of your actions, and it pains Him, but He knows that’s how you learn. Dwell on the character of God. It will blow your mind. It will cause your world to go from bad topsy-turvy, to an amazingly good topsy-turvy.